Saturday, November 12, 2011

(Almost) One Year

I honestly can not say this last year has been the happiest year of my life. It sucks, yes, but that's just how it is. I'm learning to throw all my expectations, along with baby milestones out the window. I'm in a better place right now than what I was even just a few months ago. I'm glad I started going to therapy because that is what is helping me discover all this.

I still get stressed out and angry, but it's different now. I feel like I handle it better. I'm finally feeling happy again and my sweet baby boy seems better too. I still stress about his weight and throwing up, but overall we are all in such a better and happier place in our lives right now, and that gives me hope. 

Last year he has been through a pavlik harness, rhino brace, 2 spica casts, physical therapy, speech therapy, starband helmet and the rhino brace at night. He has also seen an orthopedic, geneticist, dermatologist, ophthalmologist, neurosurgeon, cardiologist, gastrointestinal and his regular pediatrician of course. What's next? I'm not sure.

I know that with his condition, we might run into more hospital stays or medical interventions. But right now, today, I feel hopeful, that everything will eventually get better. I'm learning to accept that this is our "normal". So even though it hasn't been the happiest year of my life, he really does make me happy, he is an awesome, tough, sweet little guy. We will just take it day by day and enjoy even the smallest of achievements. 

Thank you Gina for sharing this quote with me.


-Gina- said...

That brought tears to my eyes, Nancy. Andrew is such a gift!! He feeds off your energy--just love that baby and life will suddenly love you back. I can't speak from experience with what you've gone through, but keep reaching out for support--the doors are waiting for you to walk through them! *hugs*

Amy H. said...

Oh Mama, you are strong. Strong for yourself, strong for your family, but most of all strong for your little man.


Figuring Out The Details said...

Love this post. Thank you for keeping it real and acknowledging how hard things can be sometimes. I hope it helps anyone who comes across it to know they don't have to pretend to be a superhero, and it's okay to admit that sometimes things are rough. Glad things are feeling better for you.