Having a tiny anxiety attack

The census job called to re schedule my training to April 3rd. And no, that's not why I'm having a tiny anxiety attack, it's because they also changed the location of my training. I had already been to the previous training place, so I knew how to get there. I've had my driver license for 3 months now and I'm still not comfortable with driving. I'm still not an expert on parking, I've never been on the toll roads and I'm scared of switching lanes, those are my 3 biggest problems. So now I really need to look into buying a cheap GPS. Ugh! I think I'm going to start looking for another job just in case, something near my house and full time might be a better option anyway. I'll keep you posted.

Good news!

I finally got a job! I will start training to be a U.S. Census taker in about a month. It's kind of funny how things work out. I applied for this job almost 2 months ago. It was one of the first jobs I applied for in the beginning of my job hunt. And so far, it's the only one I ever heard back from.

The other funny thing is that it will practically force me to learn how to drive better, which I'm nervous about, but what better way to learn right? It will all take place around my neighborhood too. It's only an 8 week job but I'm ok with that.

It seems like every time I start to loose hope, something always comes through... coincidence? maybe, but it helps to know that if you think positive and ask for things, it will happen in it's given time. I have a good feeling about this, it sounds kind of fun.

Friday

Hello! Just stopping by to wish you a good weekend. I sold a painting this week and it cheered me up a bit... ok a lot, but it kind of wore out by now.

I went to a career fair today, but it sucked, so my job hunt continues and it's not looking promising. I'm going to a birthday party in a little bit, I hope there's junk food. Ok that's all I got, until next time!

So...

As I was telling Candice today, I don't really like to post blog entries if I've been feeling bleh-ish. Last week I truly felt like I was going to have an anxiety attack...at least that's what I think it was, based on the symptoms I found on the mighty cyber bible known as Google.

I tend to freak out and stress over little things. Lately I've been feeling sad, frustrated, confused, stressed, disappointed, like a loser, etc. All these feelings have to do with either driving, my job hunt, my Etsy store or my husband. I'd rather not get into it right now though. I just hate feeling this way and want it to end soon.

On another note, I had a little "milestone" today. I put gas in the car all by myself for the first time. I couldn't even open the cap for the gas tank, but after many attempts I finally got it open. I know all this driving news is probably no big deal to most, but to me, driving is the scariest thing I have ever had to do... well, maybe besides marriage he he. I feel (and hope!) that both will one day be worth the hard work.

Hi

I made this quick little painting last night. I guess I still have flowers on my mind ever since I made my new blog header. It was just something different to experiment with, trying to be a little more "loose".

My job hunting continues, with no success. No one is hiring and the jobs I do find on Craigslist, are mostly scams. It's really sad given the current economic situation that, people have time to post, what seems like a perfectly normal job, and then, turns out to be a scam. It's just wrong! People are desperate for jobs, stop wasting our time and making us believe they are real jobs.

I have six custom paintings to work on. I also went to the Orlando Museum of Art with my friend Candice today. We figured we should take advantage of being members. That museum kind of sucks, I wish we had a contemporary art museum. Well, that's it for now kiddos. Have a good evening!

Almost midnight

We just finished watching Becoming Jane, I think it was alright. Earlier today, I made a few changes to this little blog. I made it three columns and also designed a new header. I'm quite pleased with the new header, I never knew it would be that easy to make, especially with the little knowledge of Photoshop that I have.

I have been applying to more jobs online, but it seems like half of them are scams. I wish the real ones would at least responded with a " thank you for your interest, but this job has already been fulfilled" or something, geez!

I started to feel depressed earlier today, but then I started working on my blog and it all went away. It also helped to find out, that a friend wants 6 more custom paintings. That's great news and it should keep me pretty busy for a few days.

I've been forgetting to keep track of which books I've been reading lately. Right now I'm reading One Fifth Avenue by Candace Bushnell and so far so good. I also finished The Beach House by Jane Green, I enjoyed that one very much. I have, as usual, about 4 books waiting to be read. I'll let you know which one I pick next. Have a good rest of your weekend.

So...

I've been looking for a job. I took a test to possibly work for the US Census Bureau. I need to call them and see if they have a job for me. I also applied at Target and emailed my resume to a job I found on Craigslist, to work at a lab at UCF. We'll see what happens.

I drove for the first time by myself today. I went to the post office. When I got there, I realized how nervous I was because my heart was beating really fast. I made it back home safely though. One day at a time.

Tonight, I went out to dinner with my friend Erica and a few other friends of hers, it was her birthday! We had sushi and one of her friends payed for all of us, that was so nice of him!

I made a new painting today. It's a kangaroo with her baby...I'm not sure if I like it yet, I'll post it as soon as I scan it or take a photo of it. Mike is already in bed reading, and I want to join him tonight, last night I got caught up playing Sims 2 and didn't get to read in bed, so good night!